By Tanisha Yawar for Sister-hood
Patriarchy is everywhere: but within our Muslim culture, it seems to be painfully pronounced.
Marriage is the final frontier for me. Those around me like to say ‘it just hasn’t happened for you,’ but the truth is I spent my twenties running from it. I have seen the double standards that are involved in traditional Muslim marriages up close. The bride’s family falling over backwards in disgusting admiration and gratefulness that a groom has shown up at the door to remove the burden that is their daughter. Daughters educated only to be asked whether they know how to cook and whether they will continue to work after marriage. We have moved on in many ways within the Muslim community, but marriage seems to be the sticking point keeping us in the dark ages.
The entirety of sexism – the way it seeps into every little crease and crack of society, whether through the lack of women in media, the two women a week killed by a current or ex-partner, the way girls are cat-called when they walk down the street – has engulfed me over the last 12 weeks through the pathetic medium of online Muslim marriage. I find the whole thing repulsive, but I’ve closed the door to an arranged marriage (for good reason) and have spent my life adhering to most of the expectations of a Muslim life. Therefore getting out there and meeting men is not something I know much about it and don’t feel well versed in, so Muslim matrimonial websites were recommended to me. I was reluctant. I didn’t expect it to go well. I don’t see myself as attractive; certainly not attractive within the narrow norms of what the word means to the majority of people. I am not aesthetically pleasing, and on top of that I am an independent, opinionated feminist woman (every mother-in-law’s dream…). This was unlikely to be an easy path. I joined the murky world of talking to strangers, or rather sorting through profile pictures with a polished review of what they want you to know. I joined a site that was for professionals looking for committed Muslim relationships. I thought that the absence of a ‘swipe’ feature might save me some of the sexism that I knew would follow. I was wrong. Let’s meet the contenders:
- The man that wrote ‘no women with body hair’ on his profile.
- The man who said ‘You are beautiful’ and in the next message asked if I would like to meet in a hotel tonight. When I said no, he said ‘Well, you’re ugly anyway.’
- The man who asked if I wanted to marry him because he needed permanent residency; I am but a walking visa.
- The man who said he didn’t usually like ‘such dark-skinned girls.’
- The man who wrote on his profile that ‘Islam wanted men as protectors and women as obeyers.’ When I questioned this, he called me stupid and told me I was likely to go to hell.
- The man who wrote that he wanted a slim woman. When I told him my size, he said my photo was misleading and called me a liar.
- The man who stopped talking to me because I said if we were to be married, I might not want to live with and be a carer for his parents – I had the notion I would be a partner not a maid.
- And then the many, many, many men who talked to me, who seemed to enjoy the conversation until they asked to see a photo and then simply stopped talking because my face displeased them. Regardless of what they learnt about me before, what they laughed at and the flirtatious questions they asked. It all stopped after seeing me. You see, personality counts for nothing.
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